No one told me having a six-year-old was going to be such a roller coaster. This girl. She’s vibrant one minute and pouting the next. At least with a toddler you know where you stand – “NO!” or laughing. There is no in-between.
Her latest thing is to go lay dramatically across the bed and stick out her bottom lip. And then she’ll tell me, “I’m upset, but I don’t want to talk about it.”
Nope, she doesn’t. She wants me to guess what’s wrong. And then fix it. Today’s list:
“I wish I was a baby again. You snuggle them so much.” (Babies can’t talk. They need Mommy to help them eat, calm down, etc. I need you to understand that it’s not that I don’t want to snuggle you. I just have two babies under 2.)
“Why don’t we have any pictures of just me and you?” (We do.)
“When is Daddy going to be home? I haven’t seen him in a while.” (He’s had a busy week.)
“I need more mommy time.” (She is homeschooled and I spend all of nap time focused on her).
“I don’t have a present for you for your birthday.” (It’s really ok. Draw me a picture and cross me out. It makes me laugh hysterically.)
“I wish I had a water bottle like yours.” (You can use your allowance to get one.)
Those are just the ones I can remember.
I’m tired. So tired.
But I’m working on a human who will one day be someone great. It’s worth the effort.
She will be someone. I know that.
The Lord has big plans for this girl. Her heart is bigger than Texas and her personality is even bigger.
As He says in Jeremiah 29:11, He has plans to help her prosper, plans to give her hope and a future.
And I get the supreme reward of being her mom. I get to sit back with my cup of tea and watch the story unfold.
I get a front-row seat to the show. And her dad and I are responsible for making sure she arrives on time, prepared with her lines and her heart. Prepping a heart for a lifetime is tough work, but it’s secured with heart seeds. I planted a few of them tonight.
She’d asked me how much God loves us at dinner. I told her He gave His son in exchange for our sin. I told her He held back His mighty power so that we could live. I know these everyday seeds of conversation will flourish over the next several weeks, months and years.
I took a few extra minutes to wrap this big girl up in my arms tonight and I read her the Love chapter of the Bible. She didn’t understand most of it, but that’s ok. We’ll get there. I told her, “We’ll learn it together.”
We’re planting seeds here. Heart seeds. Eternity seeds. These take time to grow. But man, when they do…
My cup runneth over.